m a k i n g . s e n s e . o f i t a l l.

It’s been quite the journey so far I have learned a lot about myself.

where i feel most comfortable, and where the line is stepping outside my comfort zone..

The first week out here was a taste of how great things can be, considering our circumstances-

And since then to now has been a challenge to adapt to a new level of reality.

I made the decision to take that leap of faith that was stirring up within me-

Without a real plan, and cushion of comfort I could rely on.

But I’ve been figuring it out, and where im at now,

Is an understanding level of what I have to offer, and where I need to go with it.

It’s not easy getting up, leaving your home and family, everything your comfortable and accustomed to.

I admire everyone I’ve met in NY who leave where they come from to start over in a big busy city like ny-

It musn’t be so easy!

And it’s the same no matter where you go though-

Like me- I left New York City to start fresh in San Francisco

It’s been tough!

I miss my friends, my family, my job…

I even started to think to myself… “why the hell did you leave everything you had behind to come to just another city…for what?!”

To Grow

To Learn

To Teach

To Search

within my soul where my heart lies, and share my love with the people I come in contact with.

After All,

I am- A WHOLE LOTTA NEW YORK

And I won’t forget- that’s where I come from

And i’ll hold that and use it as I wish

To apply it to something new, something cool, that i love

After All…

“for all the ups there will be some downs
and for the downs there will be ups-
don’t get stuck with the thought that it won’t change because
nothings stays the same
nothing lasts forever-
just be aware of your actions every moment
they will have an effect on the future outcome you create…..”

-Bocky

s u t r o b a t h s. to .l a n d s e n d

don’t hold on, let go, and be open for anything.

I couldn’t have planned such an extraordinary day, it was like the heavens were open and let us in.

i was stunnified today. by a whole other side of mother nature. she’ll really show you something if you go the distance for it.

it started out as just a normal walk in the park.
naturally the day began to unfold in our favorable delight!
Just like finding the right place for lunch.. the woman who opened the cafe on Haight street is from Syria and was either happy to see us, or she’s just always bright and happy.
in that case we’re just lucky for bumping into happy people…
just walking down the streets was nothing more than fun.
our friend suggest off the top of his head “let’s get to the pacific”
so off to the pacific ocean we went.
he knew a little about what he was doing, but had never been there himself.
Once we got there i was stunnified again-
the cliffs, the water, the rocks.. the pools!
the sutro baths is what we went to discover and oh how magical.
you could feel the energy around you, how grateful people were to experience such bliss.
it was still calm and quiet. not crazy and attractive.
it was respected with gratitude.
next stop was lands end.
we hiked through small paths to find ourselves in the most open cliffs that showed you to the Golden Gates, where we spread our arms wide and accepted and took it all in.
and as the sunset, we set too…

n e w . b e g i n n i n g s .

here’s to new beginnings, a fresh start, and being free !

i never thought i’d be feeling this free until i let go.

growing up in manhattan my whole life, always on the go, trying to have the most fun..
trying to be at every event or party happening, never taking a moment..
there’s another way to live life i realized for myself.

I can’t be held back by the same routines, people, and jobs.
you realize what you want when you consider it, and take the leap of faith.

since i was born i was in ny, i never chose to stay. i was placed, amongst many others.

i love ny a lot- i can see why people come. theres so much to do.

but i made a brave decision to leave and see what living somewhere else is like.

after yoga teacher training i thought and still do think anything and everything is possible.

so we did it, and we left. for california.

today is the first day here after arriving last night.

the auspicious one

always promising, always encouraging

no wonder we call Shiva the ‘destroyer’ or ‘transformer’

he’s always promising change and encouraging us to be the best we can be.

destroying our past and transforming us for the future.

I didn’t know much about shiva before I chose to chant the Shiva mantra for one of our TT assignments….

Shiva Shiva Shiva Shambo Shiva Shiva Shiva Shambo Mahadeva Shambo Mahadeva Shambo

Victory to the supreme Lord, the benevolent one who brings happiness and joy.

Shiva is responsible for the creation and desolution of the universe.
He is the eternal yogi, blissfully unaffected by maya (illusion).
He destroys our attachments and delusions and brings our liberation.

 

I love to chant to Shiva no matter what mood im in, Shiva always uplifts my spirit

‘G E T T I NG T O I DO’

ENJOY YOUR YOUTH, ITS THE TRUTH!

t h e r e s  s o m e o n e  i n m y  l i f e  w h o ‘ s  t r y i n g  t o  m a k e  m e

s m i l e

i n   t h e  n i c e s t  w a y   :V)

M Y M I N D S H I G H I N T H E S K Y, I F I F E L L, I’ D P R O B A B L Y D I E.

i f i n d y o u i n m y m i n d m o r e t h a n i w o u l d l i k e

t h e s e m e m o r i e s o f y o u s t a y l i t , a n d w o n ‘ t b u r n t o n o t h i n g

b ut s o m e t i m e s l e s s

“and i know what it feels like going over the lines, my feelings that i hold behind roll off my face into the hands of another”

“feeling regret i stumble out of bed in a hurry with worry”

[ H A T E A T E M E ]

&

with kind

i survived

m i n d s t u f f

half melting butterflies stick to tangled branches intertwine over my head onto a bed of flowers lock eyes with rainbow scorpions on lilipads in a body of water fireflies watch overhead make graceful circulations

 

“i live under the sun’s light

through my inner light

it shines throughout me…”

…L it t le Girl

…it  is  love  that   i    TRUST,

And   it is    T R UST   that   i L o ve…..

 

 

                                                 ” my little self is a reflection of-  my big Self”

 

 

… you are everything you believe…

 

 

 

for whatever it takes, its worth e v e r y t h i n g  its earned.

g r a t i t u d e

… w o r l d  o f  p l e n t y …

 

“who knew life could be whatever you want it to be.”

 

 

it is one act of kindness that can change a life forever.

 

‘ w a l k i n g  o n  d e a d m a n s  d r e a m ‘

 

 

. . . .the world is just a fantasy someone dreampt, 

 

and we are  all merely players in the community that was created. .

“…let me wash away my memory of you.
help me forget how great you are,
cause i cant stand not having any at all.”

 

“swept me off my guard again.

I ra n into you again once more-

your presense amongst others,

stand out so much more.

I ran into you today, thought you wouldn’t have been around-

but there you were, and i couldn’t believe it”

o ld l over s b urn o ut t he fir e

al ways mov ing fo rwa rd